The Lack of a Human Moment

Why are we so afraid of human contact? Why is it we can not longer connect?

People seem afraid of real interaction, and conversation….

This really makes me sad… Everyday I get IMs or e-mails and all they say is, “Hey wanna chat?” No one would walk up to a stranger and really say this…

I always reply the same way, “About what?”

It seems like a logical question. Most of the time they say it is up to me. Well I was not the one to approach them. Why should I choose the topic? We would not expect this of a stranger in real life.

On myspace I always tell people to read my profile… I actually have a pretty detailed one. I actually took he time to fill everything out just to see how many people really read it. So when they say, “What are you into?” I easily reply with, “Well it is all in the profile, what else do you want to know?”

This is where they get really annoyed… the say something like: “I guess you do not want to talk.”

The thing is I love to talk to strangers… but I want to have a conversation… I feel with the bases squared away in my profile that should be like a warm lead into a conversation with me. If ya see something you like bring it up… We can talk about that, and expand from there next thing you know OMG we had a real conversation with give and take….

How hard was that… do not just say, “I like to party.” and expect me to carry it from there. The benefit of the internet is we can “meet” people from all over the world…

We can share ideas, learn form others and broaden our horizons… but people make it even more impersonal than it already is…

In my comments telling people to read my profile and such like that, I am not trying to be offensive… I just want you to have a basic idea of an idea for a conversation before contacting me for the first time ever….

Can’t we connect? Can’t we have real moments? Must we keep it to pleasantries?

Do you need salt, pepper, or ketchup? Debit or credit? Cream and sugar?

That’s it? Really? How about how are you doing today? (and really mean it)

Sigh… I ask to much I guess…

A Link To me on Myspace

The past…

Has this weird way of coming back and visit you…

It is how we handle our past and embrace the moment that makes us stronger or weaker…

One can never let the past rule us, we should learn from it, take from it what we can but do not let it dominate the moments we live. Your past is not who you are, it just shapes what you have become.

If you do not like your past, evolve. Shed the past from off your shoulders, and reinvent your NOW. Remember, it is now that matters, for that is what we are faced with.

There is nothing in our past that is so grand that it is worth giving up an eternity of moments for.

There are often things in our past worth holding on to, and those should never be let go of. If we focus too much on that we miss what is going on all around us.

So I am thankful for my past for making me who and what I am. I am thankful for all the good memories my past has given me, and the people who have breached my awareness. I am thankful for those who have inspired me… Yet I am not letting go of the things that make me happy now and inspire me today.

I am told this is a foolish pursuit, that will leave me feeling empty later, but I can not see how following BLISS can ever be foolish…

I do not have the crazy notion that if it feels good go for it but I also will not subject myself to needless stress and pain. I do not put myself were I do not want to be. How can that be so bad? This simple thought has given me a book that I have written, and inspired people around me…

Am I permanently enlighten? Or am I the fool like those who do not get it think that I am? I really do not know.. Nor will I worry about it. For today the sun shines and God blesses me…

Buddhists believe that only when we are free from desire are we ready to achieve bliss.

New rant form my book/ In this Moment

I have taken to long of a break from my book. Oops I got lazy.. So anyway i have been working on it all afternoon. I plan to work on it long into the night. I need to get a few chapters done. At least one more rant. I have done a chapter and a half today. I also cleaned up a rant and inserted it into the book already.

I have also written the time line for my conclusion. I also have started notes for the second book.

Anyway here is the rant that I cleaned up today… It is kind of how I live today…

In This Moment

Life is all about a single moment. You are not your past and, you are not your future. You are right now, this moment, this one here, presently. Everything that is happing is in the immediate. If you do not like what is going on right now, than change it. You control what happens to you. Enlightenment happens when we learn this. I also think that all moments are one in the same, all in constant happening. That is a train of thought for another day, and maybe from another person from another person.

Too many people walk around living in their past and they can not see how wonderful the world around them is. They are zombies to pains of yesterday. Bad things happen to all people. It is what we do after them that make us stronger or defeats us. Yes it is important to learn from our past, and to never forget it. One should never forget the lessons that already learned. On the same note though, one can not let these things weigh them down. You learn, you remember, you move on. Take the veil of past failures off your eyes, and look at how lovely the present moment is.

Other people live in fear of the future and things to come. Okay not always in fear of, but obsessed with it. They spend so much unable to wait that they pass everything by with out ever stopping to look. There is a saying from the Talmud, “Everywhere you look there is something to be seen.” Now I can see worrying about where you are going to end up. That makes perfect sense, and one should keep an eye where they are going so they do not find themselves in a bad place. At the same time though if you look to far ahead, you may trip over something going on right now.

These things though should never rule us. Learn from your past, watch where you are going, but always enjoy the moment. If we focus on the things we are doing right this second, then we can enjoy those things. I f you are not careful you will wake up one day to realize you are just going through the motions, and they have become meaningless. When touching your lover treasure how it feels to touch them right then. When talking to someone, think of what is being said, do not just wait for your turn to speak. You may even learn something that way.

To truly find the moment close your eyes, take a deep slow breath, and then look at the world around you. I mean really look at it. Let your self see every detail around you and take it in as if it is the first time you are really seeing it. Let go of your past, let go of your worries, and be. If you like what is there then totally throw yourself into it. If you do not like it, then leave. Go on to the next moment. You are the author of your life, so only write yourself into the places you need and want to be. Life is a series of rooms. Base your moments on who you share the room with. Only share moments with the people you want to share them with. It means more that way. Have a real human moment.

If you have no ordinary moment, than by far you have no ordinary life. Live every day like it really matters, because it does! Never forget that! Live the life less ordinary, and be a part of the evolution revolution.

Naomi’s Rant: Off the Grid and Out of my Mind

This is from the book I am working on I hope you guys like it!

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Internet, leases, phone contracts, IM, Myspace, Yahoo, Google, utilities, and mail: It is all part of the grid. Fuck the grid. Fuck scan bars, UNI card, ID, and passports. Why must every movement we make be traceable? Social Security, driver’s license, hunting licenses, W2s, W4s and, “Let me see your ID please.” I hate this shit. I am a Modern American Reject Gypsy. I have no place for your Grid! I will run and hide from it.

Yes, I have a cell phone. So I guess I do have a little bit of a life line still attached to this evil that is the US way of life. I only have it because one never knows where they will end up and when they will need a little bit of saving. In case you can not tell I am a small female, with a big mouth, so I need saving a lot. To be honest everyone should have a cell phone, but that is a rant for another day.
I say turn your TV off, close your laptop, and get the fuck off the Internet! Stop putting your name on everything. What is this human need to leave a bit of them self everywhere they go? Keep doing that, and after awhile you lose yourself. There is a life outside of IM’s, email, and text messages. Now get out and live it! Take the things that hold you to this grid, and throw them at the next 18-wheeler you see.

YES, I am crazy, never denied it, but really am I wrong? I am out of my God Damn mind! Who says I need a credit card? Why must Visa, Master Card, and American Expresses rule my life and tell me what I can and can not buy. Really I don’t have one. No one believes me, but I don’t. I work for tips, and never get a paycheck. I am good by this, and think more people should be like this. Too many people walk around say how much they hate their job. This really gets to me. Do not tie yourself to something you hate. Your job does not own your soul, you can quite. Why stay if it upsets you. If you have ever cried at work, then you are in the wrong business.

No I am not paranoid, well maybe I am a little. I don’t think aliens are tracking my movements, and I am not worried about the government hunting me down because I bought something weird. That is jut dumb. I am not running from warrants, the law or charges against me. I just miss a life where what you do is privet if you want it to be. I miss the general population being able to disappear if they feel the need. Sometimes mystery is good.

Sometimes you need to just turn off the electric buzz in our everyday life. I never did like white noise. I was once told that pink noise is really more soothing, but I do not know anything about that. Are you like me, and just need a fucking break? When I left the grid it was only meant to be a month tops. Told all my blog readers I would be back after a vacation from life. Who knew I would love it off the grid so much that I would dump it all! I live here, and now. My home is in the moment, and I never worry about who leaves comments on whose page. I don’t care if no one sent me an email, or left me a comment on Myspace for a while, and so what if I have not had any hits on my blog for 2 months now. I am to busy living a life less ordinary! If you ask me that is what really matters, “Freedoms just another word for nothing left to lose!”

Now come on every one lets all go out of our minds and off the grid! Join my evolution revelation. Free yourself! Lets jump this and find out how good freedom feels! I am a rat fleeing the Titanic. I am jumping this ship while it is still afloat!

/end rant/ end transmission/ free your self